(Pre-Verse): Let it rain let it rain, sometimes it's better if we never know what comes with the day (Verse 1): I feel it pouring, feel enormous, like an omnipresent presence with the pen and ink that's setting in my pages permanently permeating what is aching in my mental instrumental loop infinite though i'm choosing what can fit in, my schedule times a rental no insurance just a promise we'll return it don't like handouts but i like to be rewarded if i've earned it I was born to be the sun & shine divine upon the surface of the earth I know my purpose and some don't so I disturb them Is it worth it? To be a lighthouse to a moth won't turn my mic down from the mob I'm thinking right now i should pause And then I bite back on tomorrow the sorrow on my track turns bright that's my reaction to stay in tact Sowing letters the reaper that's coming severs the demons of who i was to an ether from up above I can reach it i dream because of the teachers that lift me up if you see me just know it's love i know nothing but know enough yeah (Hook): Let it rain let it rain, sometimes, It's better if we never know what comes with the day Water my life renew me as heaven speak flows through me x 2 (Verse 2): You see the world's in decay and you want to save it Let rain infuse with the seeds in the soil you plant today If i had a child of my own I would look him straight in the face and say you have a choice, to be grateful or to complain and I've felt that infernal heat lurking underneath where i think purgatory a stagnant story I had to dead by recording excuses could not afford it, I need a home before 40 a forked road won't detour me but on my tours i'll be orbiting and absorbing energy memories severing everything i knew as normal turns to 777 angel numbers and heaven speak through my portal to spirit that rain pouring I hear it and let ring like a celestial being that sings fearless yeah I want your palms/poems* to hear this that rain won't calm or clear quick I pray my god i call the universe that's listening when whipping winds to hit me out my throne of my indifference the difference is I will be king (Hook): Let it rain let it rain, sometimes, It's better if we never know what comes with the day Water my life renew me as heaven speak flows through me x 2 (Outro): Wisdom lead with truth Let the rain come through Storm through lies undo Let the rain come through *originally the line was palms, but a friend heard Poems and I liked the ambiguity of the line. palms being where reiki energy is felt, poems meaning wanting your own deep revelations and musings to feel it.

(Hook): Been a little while of a comfort death I'm numb to stress I'm under pressure I feel like getting out the car for a longer rest But I can't slow down 'til I get me somewhere Been a little while of a comfort death I'm numb to stress I'm under pressure I feel like getting out the car for a longer rest But I can't slow down no I can't slow down now (Verse 1): Twenty-something aging, I don't just close no i'm burning full pages Work got my head-soup stirred now i'm anxious I can't hear gods voice nor be creative Should i make content full-time live a life online? Word of mouth spreads like fire through the grapevine Selfish, I see them get theirs can I take mine? Really I just wanna hit the breaks 'til I'm fine (Pre-Hook): I know I'm here for more than this I'm frozen while giving all I can give It's been (Hook): Been a little while of a comfort death I'm numb to stress I'm under pressure I feel like getting out the car for a longer rest But I can't slow down 'til I get me somewhere Been a little while of a comfort death I'm numb to stress I'm under pressure I feel like getting out the car for a longer rest But I can't slow down no I can't slow down now (Interlude): Man... I just need to take some time off or something but I don't know If i can (Verse 2): I was the news one day and I sang some songs and went home 8 months later out at some function someone told me they saw me that's all. They didn't give me praise or attention just happened to mention my robes they remembered it left me empty and so I had told myself. I can't make songs to be liked but to know myself All the knowledge in my pen I can hold that wealth I'm so tired of the fence that I'm on get help but when i'm broke and behind when there's no one else to give comfort I'm unsure and overwhelmed (Pre-Hook) I know I'm here for more than this I'm frozen while giving all I can give It's been (Hook): Been a little while of a comfort death I'm numb to stress I'm under pressure I feel like getting out the car for a longer rest But I can't slow down 'til I get me somewhere Been a little while of a comfort death I'm numb to stress I'm under pressure I feel like getting out the car for a longer rest But I can't slow down no I can't slow down now Can't slow down no I can't slow down now

(Hook): Maybe I'll know it's time, maybe i'll know it's my fault I let it build up inside And if it's too much well I don't blame you for feeling that way that you do when I tell you I love you I cant just change that (Verse 1): I know it's mine, I just want to be there Maybe it's my fault that I can't work on my own faults Instead of yours I know you don't believe that one day What I'm asking, what I'm asking is too much Too much (Hook): Maybe I'll know it's time, maybe i'll know it's my fault I let it build up inside And if it's too much well I don't blame you for feeling that way that you do when I tell you I love you I cant just change that (Interlude): And i know we've got some problems and we're headed to the door And i know you threw your heart out til you hit it to the floor And I know we've got some problems and we're headed to the door know you know you got some problems know you know you got some problems And i know we've got some problems and we're headed to the door And i know you threw your heart out til you hit it to the floor And I know we've got some problems and we're headed to the door know you know you got a problem when your heart is in your (woah woah) (Verse 2): Dear Michael, You try to teach your son as fathers will do to become a man you thought your mania explosions would hold you above your nest but I'm certain closed curtains and nervousness in my curcuits flushed the surface of my face My reflection was yours at best See his voice was like thunder rain problably pouring underneath, Couch-sitting dissassociating war veteran subtleties Some days we were lucky when he cooked or took us thrifting but the edge was always who knows when his energy was shifting Avoidance was casual I stayed upstairs right after school And played my '64 until it's dinner time or back to blue Or back to black, Just stay out of my way and watch your habitat And watch the words you say cause disrespect? I won't be having that We had a scuffle at supper before the nursing home Would drain the life from him and he withered in that bed alone Said, "I don't like how you yell at me for my little wrongs" He told me, "If you don't like it then you can move along" My mom said, "maybe we will" and he barely spoke to me After getting ill and losing both his legs it's getting real no friends visited mostly my mom and sister went To love him like i couldn't to prepare themselves for when he left His last words to me, "Take care of them" "I will", I Said and somehow in the darkness tied between us there was still a thread of "Learn from everything I am, and change to who you'll be instead' at 4 am I fell asleep at 6 he took his final breath (Outro): Our father Who gave us trauma Hallowed be thy name May we rise above your ancestral pain Thy will is done No longer here on earth We see our way to heaven We find solace in our acceptance In our disobedience and unanswered questions In our trail of tears that bloomed into prosperity over years I've released what you've held So you and I no longer collide I let you go And now I'm left with the truth The truth that I'm alone I am alone

(Intro): I wasn't ready wasn't ready to all alone no no no (Verse 1): Another night, another faint gray sky I'm staring up from a park bench where cars pass me by And i'm looking for an answer like I did when I was 5 I'm trying to figure out why things work the way they do Why there's gaps of silence between my thoughts until they move Why dads vibe was violent, Why mom's hugs would always soothe Why my elementary classes made me anxious 'til I spaced completely Looking back did i move past what I was feeling? Cause I've been waking up and shaking from these bad dreams Blending with reality, now I can't tell if I'm asleep Standing on this balance beam Just scared to move toward anything I thought I wouldn't turn around the moment I was 23 The moment passed but silly me I 360'd back home I thought that if the city sleeps I'd leave through it's back door silently I'd sneak But i'd forgotten, nobody was waiting for little old me. (Hook): I wasn't ready wasn't ready to be all alone It's like a yearning and a burning feeling in my soul I'm always waiting for a miracle but can't be sure Some things are better said they're better when they can't be known (Verse 2): I want some rain to fall the light is just not matching me I've held so much inside while knowing no ones coming after me I meditate and pray to something opening some hope When nothing's working for my greatest good and tightens up my throat i ask em "Why'd you create me just to feel like no one's here to help? And why'd you make it so the answer is to save myself? Why'd you make me love these women that can't love me I'm staring in the mirror trying not to think I'm ugly and why am I so clumsy when it comes to conversation? And why'd you make a filter if I mean it how I say it And it hurts somebodies feelings so I have to keep refraining From the words I need to say cause if they hurt my head replays it god. I wanna see with clear eyes and less judgement To face my inner child when he's in need to give him comfort To honestly be naked no mask as I undress to be me No more, and no less. (Hook): I wasn't ready wasn't ready to be all alone It's like a yearning and a burning feeling in my soul I'm always waiting for a miracle but can't be sure Some things are better said they're better when they can't be known (Bridge): Give me patience when I need answers Give me strength for what I can't handle Cause I've been walking through the darkness where candles aren't lit and need a hand to hold Take my selfishness Take my pride I say to hell with it Cause right now I need love (Hook): I wasn't ready wasn't ready to be all alone It's like a yearning and a burning feeling in my soul I'm always waiting for a miracle but can't be sure Some things are better said they're better when they can't be known x 4

(Verse 1): Yeah Since the day I started writing coming from me was a riot Blending forms like it's alchemy out from me came a sound in his house at home filled with doubt an expresionless taste sour But lingering in my mouth so say it Do I even have a purpose? Feel like a curse to my family getting high and then hiding until it's time for breakfast lunch and dessert And my work is light so I'm rhyming to get me by Cooking ramen and passing time but it will be mine when I get it I tell my friends and they dig it Went back to school for a minute instead of notes I wrote lyrics my fans will scream when they hear them I know They gassed me up when I was singing to the radio Started rapping more I had to balance out the ratio Release shows were building buzz like florescent lights hanging from above me in detention Writing desperate cause I really started looking at the world to just accept it And everything I was was seeking glory from attention That's a drug but when it's done and there's no one hitting you up on the phone and you're all alone will you walk in the dark or fold? It was good but at times close to me choosing another road But this my story and my legacy bringing me toward my soul yeah (Hook): And I'm never gonna quit again Never gonna quit again I said I'm never gonna quit again This a gift from god for my healing And I'm never gonna quit again Never gonna quit again I said I'm never gonna quit again This a gift from god my god now (Verse 2): I fed my ego with friends who went to my shows and still I'd notice that artists here just didn't feel me fake smiles, good job, here's your applause Take my socials, I don't really need your vocals on my track Going back and forth thinking do they think my music's wack? Adding fuel to my fire when I woke up uninspired Started looking for a view that's higher Did competitions where some judges threw some disses No one put me in their mentions do I stay or keep my distance? On my mental building pressure plus my rap group is testing all my patience on my goddess tell 'em all I'm gonna make it Pandemic hits and haults my progress The marches for Flloyd open my conscience Months after I got jumped by boys who wanted me gone from my own block then controversy my voice was feeling stomped in Next my car is stolen, music scene is broken, venues closing, my girls telling me to quit, I never wrote my magnum opus Now I'm saying this is it? I'm 'bout to lay in this abyss cause nothing's sacred Swear to god I can't take it But this my promise to myself after healing through all that hell I've got my vision and my focus clear as well I am never gonna give in I am never gonna tell you that I'm quitting again That's on my father, on my paper and pen, cement (Hook): And I'm never gonna quit again Never gonna quit again I said I'm never gonna quit again This a gift from god for my healing And I'm never gonna quit again Never gonna quit again I said I'm never gonna quit again This a gift from god my god now (Outro): There's a love in my heart There's a sound in my head There's a music within And you can't keep it out There's a love in my heart There's a sound in my head There's a music within And you can't keep it out of my soul In my soul oooo In my soul No you can't keep it out Of my soul (random goofiness) So there we go That's the shadow work Even after all that pain and trauma If I can find a way to laugh at it all and even myself, No one can take that away from me But here's what you can take away from this There's love waiting on the other side So don't be afraid to start healing